March 2011
18 posts
February 2011
17 posts
The two last days have been some of the worst. Today everything almost came to an end but i couldn’t let go. I dont know what is making me hold on besides my feelings all i know is that i just wanna be okay and find happiness within.
im tired of crying
im tired of caring too much for someome
im tired of having my heart getting stepped on
im tired of wanting you to just love me
im tired of giving my all
im tired of stting by the phone,waiting for your call
im tired of waking up feeling unhappy
im tired of constantly worring about us
im just sick and tired of being sick and tired
I've found that
the best compliments are the ones given at the worst times. You know, when someone calls you beautiful when you look your worst? Or when someone tells you how cute you are, when all you’re doing is sitting there. When you receive compliments when they’re least expected and least instigated- those are the most beautiful, pure, real compliments that a person could possibly receive.
Take those ones to heart.
I constantly feel like a tortured soul! I know completely what is wrong with me and that i should work on it but it just seems so hard. I want happiness but i think i unconsciously hold myself back from it. I don’t know when i became this way. I don’t know when my ego took over and destroyed everything that made me, ME!… My boyfriend today said some of the nicest things that really got to me. Besides the fact that im always being controlling and needy he’s still able to see past that and look at the REAL me that he feel for in the beginning. It makes me so happy to know that he’s still here and that the person i use to be isnt completely gone just kinda looking for the way back. I know what i want and who i want to be but im constantly stuggling with being two different people. I seriously miss being content with myself and life. In a way i think that relationships break me down. As much as id like to be the perfect girlfriend [ooh boy do i know im far from that]. Yet at the end of the day all i want is to love and be loved back -isnt that what we all want?-
YOU CANT MAKE SOMEONE CARE, THEY ETHER DO OR THEY DONT!
