So after work, i walked to my car which was supper fucking far cause the mall was dummy ass packed. Once i got there i realized i had left my cell phone at work-gaaah- . I decided i would drive home to FB my co-workers and see if they could get it for me. Soooo i drove back and met up with kevin [the higher power, cause he has zee keys]. We looked all over the place and couldnt find my phone. I was really upset so i had made up my mind that my phone was long gone.As i walked to my car and opened the door i see my bright ass phone cover only to realize that my celly was in my car all along. I was soooo fucking happy! (:
Then i decided to go to 711 for some donuts -tehehhe- i was so busy concentrating on the fact that i got my phone back that i ran outa the car and then all of a sudden, IT HIT ME! i had just locked my car keys in the car -FML- I decided to call my mother, she was so mad and bitched me out [since this was the second time this happened]. I was so overwhelmed by all of this i just wanted to cry i couldn’t believe that this had just happened. I decided to call my ex best friend julian to see if he could help, he noticed how upset i was and come over to see what he could do. By that time my mom had all ready figured out a way to get they keys out so everything was fine. Even though the end of my night was filled with misfortunate events it makes me feel really good that my old/somewhat current best friends julian,benson and vianka all made an effort to see what they could do. ANDDD lets not forget my mother, even thought she totally bitched me out she still drove there and got my keys out.I LOVE HER! and im very grateful for everyone’s effort!
December 2010
50 posts
Soooo i was hating on christmas so hard all day today.! I really don’t enjoy christmas because i have an idea about how i would like it to be and its nothing like that. I don’t spend it with any family or even really celebrate it. ANYWAS i was really upset all day beacuse i see how everyone shares those moments with there family and i just dont. I was also sad and my friends didint make it any better, they just showed me how self-centered they can be. I went on to neglecting my boyfriend until he decided to call [which i am very grateful for.] He really turned my mood around and made me enjoy and see that life might not be the way i want it to be at the moment but its only gonna get better. I feel very blessed to have Wesley Scott in my life he is truly my better have. He has the power to make me understand and realize how good things really are at the moment and he points out all the things i have going for my self [something i need from time to time]. So this is for my wonderful boyfriend who deals with all my shit; my outburst, nit-picking, jealousy fits, and baby moods. I ADORE YOU SO MUCH BABY!
You know i was really starting to feel content about things that matter to me. It was a great feeling that had me at ease. I was starting to sleep/wake up feeling happy. I was starting to feel like things were looking up for me, until this morning when it all came crashing down:| You know, i like feeling content, i like not constently stressing about someone i like but noooooo that good feeling couldnt last to long it just had to de destroyed right infront of me. I worry way to much and hella overanalyze things and when you give me reason to worry its really i mean REALLY bad! I just wanna feel okay and content but i need your help on this, its 50/50 REMEMBER?!
IT FEELS LIKE ITS A 1 STEP FORWARD AND 2 STEPS BACK KINDA THING:|
I had such a long day, but i really enjoyed it. As weird as it sounds, i think im the only person who actually enjoys working over time. I went in at 10AM and was suppose to get out at 4PM but i decided to stay till 8 because i rather be working and keeping busy than at home doing nothing. I know that if i were to be home i would be worrying and over thinking things that really shouldn’t be on my mind. [Gaaah, im such a virgo.] But anyways, work was busy today. My legs hurt from standing but besides that i enjoyed my day completely. I hope i get a good night sleep and have a good day tomorrow.
Day 3: I miss wesley. Im so use to texting and talking on the phone with him that it feels really weird to bearly talk to him. At times i worry cause i have no idea what hes doing but thats just because are relationship is still fresh and this is our first time actually being away. Last night i was poring my heart out to him through text. I feel so dumb that im not able to express the way i feel about him without crying. It makes me feel so vulnerable.
” I love everything about you. Even the things that i get frustrated with i love. You’re all i could ever ask for in a lover”
-this made me so happy.
